Nice view at Marina Barrage

Wedding Day pictures~

Hi all,

pictures attack~
you can check out ALL the pics

 @ http://www.darren-francis.com/jason_and_angela

Cheers~
Lala~

Wedding Eve!

Preparation for big and Early day!

Photos from my Hen's night~

starting the night with props! haha..

candid shots with bestie~ nini~

me in full gear! haha...

pictures with xue hua & jenny~

and they were supposed to slap me if i started blabbering~ haha..

full pictures with the team!

mission #1 pictures (table pics)

 mission #2 pictures (get cute guy's hp number)

 mission #3 pictures (get that bachelor to kneel and kiss my hand)

 aftermath of mission #3 pictures (to do dance ard bachelor)

 that's all folks~

=)



my crazy hen's night!

well.. my beautiful sisters arranged to meet up at the pump room @ clarke quay to celebrate my hen's night..

i asked for a peaceful night.. truely... it was only peaceful for the 1st hour.. -_-'''

haha..

some pictures before the full gang came~

pictures with my bestie~ jenny wawa~

well... the rest of the pictures are still in xuehua's cam.. so till she has time to upload them. =)

well.. the night started out peaceful.. with us ordering bites & main courses.. chatting and plotting how to 'disturb' the guys on my wedding day~

then.. when the full gang combined power~ i was horrified~ (overly excited too) haha..

my mission impossible #1

- take pictures with all tables in the PUMP room and at least 2 per table must CONGRATULATE me... -_-'''

so.. in my drunken stupor.. err.. i only had half a cup of the scottish ale.. and i was blabbering already...

so there i went.. to ALL tables.. yes all.. we had photos as proof.. -_-'''

of all the tables there were a few funny ones..

1) tableful of angmohs who congratulated me many many times and raved abt the beautiful wings i have... (oh yah, i was wearing a butterfly fairy wing and a DIY servette veil THROUGHOUT the night! )

2) a table of 2 guys, who said i looked 23! haha... (hey, lights were still bright!)

3) a table of 4 guys, one of the guys was celebrating his bachelor's night too!

so mission #1 accomplished!

hence we proceeded to mission #2

mission #2 was to get that cute bouncer HP number. this was quite easy (since i was still drunk & awfully red) as the bouncer gamely gave his HP number (his name is aston) and said, please don call me. and i happily told him, i won't call him, but i dunno abt my sisters.. haha..

so mission #2 accomplished!

hence now mission #3

mission #3 was supposed to get a guy to kiss me on my cheek but i SUPER refused lah!

not in my dictionary/logic to do it.. cos my thinking is simple, what i do today, can be done to jason.

so.. things that i donwan done to him, should not be done to me!

simple logic!

so we comprised.. got to get a guy to kneel on 1 knee and kiss me on my hand!

luckily for me, we aimed that bachelor and he gamely did it!

*phew* lucky me!

then.. the guys of the bachelor was finding it unjust and asked us to do a seductive dance for the guy.

well.. i for sure cannot dance.. so i roped in my sisters to help! haha..

it was really silly i tell you.. haha.. till the video is uploaded!

next.. i tot all was done so i could slowly sober up..

the live band started!!!!

meaning they got me to get on to the stage for the emcee to decide how to 'punish' me! haha..

i tried to get out..but they prevailed.. haha...

lucky for me, the emcee see me really ah-toot ah-toot so... he asked me to do pole dance ard a mike stand.. tat is lucky for me already~

if you ask me do that with a guy, i think i will walk away.. haha..

well.. i also cmi with the mic stand lah..

the emcee even played the song " like a virgin" when i 'danced'... haha.. nearly fell off the stage too.. lucky i was wearing flats... so all's well end well..

finally.. my hen's night was over!

i gamely did all the missions and had quite alot of fun too~

thank you sisters!

Nick early early bdae celebration

well.. we had an uber uber early birthday celebration for nick cos...

it's gonna be busy for the next 2 weeks and worried not in time to celebrate on the actual day for him. =)

so we did it slightly earlier!

he finally got his Sony Ericssion X10 phone.. after waiting for ages where there is no discount..

finally we got some unexpected discount... haha....

so he finally got his WHITE phone.. haha..

Beautiful stuff

Dear went in jb and bought all these cute cute stuff! :)

过大礼

Actual prayers at my place. :)

Car decorations!

Nicely done by my ma and me!
:)

过大礼-prelude

Prelude of tmr's event.
:)

My HUGE blisters...

All my shoe fault... -_-''

thank you dear dear~

my dear is so uber sweet....
yes.. he is! no doubt about it!

though i do complain from time to time how he makes me breathless (literally)... i know it is becos he loves me alot alot! =)

my dear did up his table uber nice!
very DIY nice! like 'bai jia le'!
i din get a chance to take the before picture but the after looks very nice!
he used the very nice material call, ' laminate'...
(http://www.jennings.com.sg/solid-main.html)


then he also tidied up his room.. so it is very nice now!
thank you dear!

plus! he said he will tidy the CD rack for me too!  =)

my dear also plan out our phuket trip itinerary so the loose ends is for me to compare the hotel prices and make booking! =)

on my side, i also met up with my jiemeis and run through the timeline on my actual day with them. =)
time line i also estimated the stuff in so just have to discuss with my dear for final confirmation. =)

Cheers!

tired after a whole day of cleaning..
cos my house undergoing toilet renovation too.. zzz

wedding preparations

phew.. seriously.. i din know wedding preparations were such a chore..
so many twists and changes.. -_-'''

the auntie at the shop who sold us all the stuff has lots to say too.. haha..
lucky never buy all from her.. mixed and matched from other shops.. =)

this set of pails
+ sewing kit+box
+ toothbrush/colgate
+ towel
+ mirror
+ clogs (ma specially bought extra set for my dear too, cos the auntie say symbolize good for him, so we bought) haha..


then we also bought the bedside lamps (battery operated) for convenience!

we also bought this uber cute set of teapot! =)

this is all the stuff in the sewing box.

items for the benefit for the bride, which i don really understand.

but i managed to swop the items to have the same meaning so not so wasted.

hongbaos for the actual day. =)

includes red packet for my dear to symbolise him to be healthy, wealthy + happy!

that's about it for now.. except for a red umbrella which i have not bought yet..

Give = take? Take = give?

Is it true?
Pple say... What you give is what you take?
How true is that?

I always take initiative to buy breakfast for my colleagues,
I take the effort to consolidate minutes,
I make the effort to get up earlier,
I make the effort to run errands,
I take the risk of getting scolded,
I take the risk of making someone upset,
I give what I can and I do my best...

Does any of the above looks like I'm taking?
Just realize... Most of the time, I'm just giving, maybe 30% of the time I'm taking...
Hence I don agree that give = take.
But I'm still happy when I'm giving.

Happy to see my colleagues smile,
Happy to get data tidy,
Happy to do a little sth for someone,
Happy to sleep a little less,
Happy I made someone happy,
Happy to give what I can and not ask for anything back...

When someone ask for sth to be done, if it is within my means, I'll do it.
I'll avoid making the other party mull over it, make him/her unhappy and cause everyone else to worry.

If it's not in my means, just have to trouble the other party...

I guess it's no point talking about things to be done when u don wan to do it.
If u talk bat it, plan the action for it to be done.
If one's strength is not enough, just ask for help!
Don't wait till last minute...

Sometimes in life.. We have to do things we don like to do.. But we just have to get it over and do with... Cos we have no choice. In a way, it is a fixed choice...

Just like how we all have to work and not enjoy the youth olympics when it was here,
How we cannot put down our commitments and just migrate?
Our path is in front of us, whether we make our path a smooth trip with peers cheering and smoothening ur ride or, we make it a bumpy one with plenty of obstacles...

Like a saying goes, is the wine glass half full or half empty?

Am I thinking too much or is this just jitters?

Another day of work, another day of thinking...
Have I just been thinking too much or am I just have jitters?

Well... I have been posted questions ....almost everyday...
"I miss Taiwan...."
"why do u love me?"
"are you sure abt me?"
"do I look fat?"

How am I supposed to answer?
Are these questions meant to tease or serious?
I am very lost...

What if I were to ask you...
"are you sure you want to marry me?"
"do u regret proposing to me?"
"are you sure you wan to go on with the marriage with so many things happening?"

How would you feel?

I guess both of us are worried about what lies ahead for us..
What should we expect and can we fulfill the vows we make...
Friends can tell me.. I'll have a great married life...
Ur friends can tell u.. They give u 5yrs...
Am I supposed to feel that my friends are over supportive or ur friends are just teasing u?

Suddenly a question smack into my head...
Why is it that when our friends get married, I hear them spending money to get the room ready for them to stay, buying new mattresses & bedsheets for the actual day...
But for us, seems that neither of us are doin that...
Are we not prepared for marriage or are we just irritated with customs?
Are we too relax over what is necessary or are we not ready?

Lost over what stand I should take..
I hear views saying that I'm like just giving myself to u and not giving value to myself..
Not asking for things also considered as not being respected?

If I ask for many things, wouldn't I be considered fussy?
Such contridition...

Pple ask me if I feel tired, sleeping only 6-7 hrs a day..
Even on days that I feel tired... Who really knows?
I barely know myself...
I just live life to the fullest...
No one owes me a living...
I owe myself... If I can afford, I buy myself..
Cannot afford, suck thumb and think thru other means..
No point complaining anymore...
No point lamenting about how sucky life is...
Cos my life turned out like this cos I made those choices and steps that lead it become what I am today.

And I have no regrets...

Who can give me directions on what I should or should not do...
Who can I consult?

So.. Should we get married?
Or should we stay status quo?

So why are we getting married in the 1st place when I feel that u cannot breathe when I start to take up space in ur personal room...
When I ask for the corner to be tidied/cleared, can u consider my suggestion and not brush it aside?

can u consider my living/personal preferences before condemn/say it's a silly girls's thing?
Can I ask to be treated like a lady and not be treated like a nobody in the house?

Are my concerns invalid or am I becoming delirious already?
I think I'm delirious...

Tears..

Why am I even crying out of the blue..
I'm starting to not know myself..
Haiz..

Am I too pampered?

Have I been too pampered?
Starting to feel stressed over my 'new' house to be....
Am I fretting over the wrong stuff.. Or has my mother set the standard too high?

Seems that I'm fretting over where to hang my lingerie,
Where and when to wash/dry my clothes...
What are the things/chores that I should or should not do...
Things that I can/cannot throw/touch....
Whether I should sleep braless, or in my pjs or just tees and shorts?
Should I be making dinner or buying food back?
Will I be able to continue my current lifestyle?
Can I enjoy a meal with my ma at least once a week?
Will I still chill at my grandma's place on sat?
So many questions running through my head....
Yet no one can answer me...

There is no answer to it I guess..
Just have to bite the bullet and go...
We never know what the future holds,
We should not repeat mistakes of the past,
We must cherish the present.

I must say, I'm thankful for my wonderful parents who gave me a great childhood,
Thankful for my great siblings, who made my growing up years full of zest,
Thankful for my relatives who ensure our family stayed close,
Thankful for my cousins who make effort for our annual Xmas meetings,
Thankful for the friends I have, who made life fun and full of laughter,
Thankful for the teachers/mentors I known, who made me realize how to lead life to the fullest,
Thankful for the colleagues I've known, for giving my life experiences on relationship building and how to enjoy work though it may be sucky at times..
Thankful for the bosses I worked for,teaching me how a good boss/leader should be..
Last but not last, i'm thankful to my dear dear... Who stood by me...
Through my worst and my best...he made me simple.

Simple to ..
Not to be greedy for advancements..
Not be be caught unpolitical games..
Breaking through traditions..
Look at things simply and not complex..
Cherish ur loved ones when they are with you..
Love as one is, not expecting changes..

I'm thankful for what I have and not ask too much..
Not easy for me...
I'm really doing my best...

marriage?

what is marriage all about?
is it really all about losing freedom, worrying the partner go astray, how misfit i'll be into the family?
haiz.. i really donno..
am i a worrywart or wat.. i also dunno..

all along.. the picture of marriage has been very beautiful to me..
enjoying each other company..
returning to a home with a family waiting..
living together in harmony..
understanding each family member's needs..
compromising on certain issues...
giving personal space..

somehow.. my picture has been ruined..
the picture somehow has become a nightmare..
nights will end up worryin abt bedbug bites..
day will worry where to hang/dry clothes..
stress over cleanliness..
worry abt family member's health..

haiz.. seriously.. i dunno..
have i been too pamered by my own mother that results in my stress of staying with another family..
has my mother set the standard too high that i feel obliged to meet her standards to ensure my 'new' family's well-being..
or am i just too paranoid of hoping my new home be just like my current home..
or am i just being too invasive?

but isn't marriage about welcoming a new member into the family..
about make her feel comfortable with ur presence..
and not let her feel uncomfortable?

haiz..
i really donno..
what exactly is marriage all about?

no one understands..

Feeling so lost..

No one understands my situation…
No one understands what I am going through..

You know how irritating it is to have rashes over and over again…
To see scars appearing repeatedly..
To take the medicine and realize there is no more effect..
To hear from the doctor that I actually need a steroid jab..
To think I need to do a F****** allergy test…
To see my body getting uglier..
that i lose confidence in myself...
Do you know how sad I am on what is happening around you?
To see someone so dear become so weak suddenly..
You know how I cry when I just THINK of it..
How it saddens me to see her become like this?
I wish I could quit my job and just take care of her.. clean up the house clean for her..
So that she can continue to be healthy?

Quitting my job sounds so easy.. but it scares the hell out of me cos there will be no income.. no income, no food, no money, no talk. Without money, no one will look up to me.. no one will respect me.. I will be treated like dirt shit…

You think I don’t feel pain on the time & money spent on traveling?
I know you have spent a lot on getting the car and spending me time sending me home..
You think my parents donno.. they know.. they also heartache for me..
They are paying for the car.. they are paying for the petrol…
From the days in BCA, where you fetch me in your white van.. and u walk me to MRT for I take MRT back..
To MIS, where I start to drive and you have kangoo.. and u walk me to MRT for I take MRT back sometimes..
To akltg.. where I start to claim cab and drive..
To ahl.. where I continue to drive..
To now.. where you start to drive me home 99% of the time..

Yes.. I know it is a torture to send someone you love home everynight.. to wait another day till you see her again… but you tell me.. what can I do? If I don work 9-5.. tell me.. what can I do?
If you don work weekends and night, what can you do?
Our conflicting schedules kills us but we have managed thus far..

I seriously reached a standstill.. that I dunno what to do anymore..
go home early also wrong..
go home late also wrong..
meet also wrong..
don meet also wrong..
take leave also wrong
don take leave also wrong..
take mc also wrong..
don take mc also wrong..
work also wrong..
don work also wrong..
spend time with bf also wrong..
don spend time with bf also wrong..
spend time with parents also wrong..
don spend time with parents also wrong..

tell me.. what can i do that will be right...
You say.. my parents do not understand us.. have you tried to understand them..
You say they are holdin on to the wrong beliefs.. what makes you think you are right?
I asked for my rights.. I get their reprimands and concerns..
You say I should fight for it, but all I get is still their scolding..
When they gave me an answer… we couldn’t act our career were not stable.. we couldn’t decide on our future.. when we did … the date is being set 1 year …

And this 1 year.. has been a turmoil…

For the 1st time in my life.. I think I need a psychiatrist..

Tell me what I should do..
How to please my parents..
How to please my bf..
How to split myself..

i think i should just fucking die..
leave all the insurance money, not alot anyway..
do whatever the GOVT deem fit..

&^&^$%^#^$&^%T*&YGHG%#^%#

birthday week~

well.. 1st time i had such a busy bdae week~~
i went USS with my dear on my actual day! and i had a great time!

pics are all uploaded on FB so here is the link: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=264450&id=592950827&ref=mf

the only pic i going to post is this!
thank you dear~

after my busy bdae on 24th, i flew off to Hong Kong with my family members.
din take much photos .. cos not much to take lah.. haha..
so.. the only pic i managed to took was the shoes i managed to buy..
haha..

bought a few tees.. so haven't took pictures of them yet..
HK nothing much actually.. except for disneyland & ngongping 360.
shopping..not my cup of tea leh..
or maybe i haven been to the right part of HK?

well.. that's all..

tired after this adventurous week...
looking forward to spending time with my dear...
really tired of having to split myself between my family & my dear..
but i love them both.. as both are my dearest..

going sleep..
zzz...