Baby girl..

Well.. Honestly.. I was very disappointed when i found out i'm having a baby girl.. I can immediately visualize all the lashbacks and pressure that both jason and i will face..

In fact.. I was in total shock when the doc said, 70% is girl. I din know what to say, what to do, what to react... I was just at a loss.. As my sis and bro-in-law were with us, we went for breakfast together..

2nd bummer, my sis tell me that she wants to engage a confinement lady to help her.. I was thinking.. I don even have a chance to engage a confinement lady to help me at all...

Now with a girl.. 100% don even need to think of getting any help from anyone.. I'm all on my own... I felt so alone and helpless.. I felt angry for not listening to my mother.. That i should have waited when i get my own home before having baby... Why i din heed the phophency and insisted on going against god's will..

The reaction i get when we announce that baby is girl to his uncle was so.. So... Heartbroking.. I felt like leaving house tat very moment.. Just felt like hiding in my mother's arms and stay in her protection..

But i know it is not easy for Jason either..
But.. This is all god's will and i just have to face the music.. With help or without help..
I donno how i will survive but i hope all will work out somehow someway...

I'm seriously not sure how i will survive my pregnancy or how i will go through my confinement.. Maybe the only people tat will pop by and help (besides jason) during my confinement will be my parents.. I dunno how my baby will grow up either with her growing up years being a question mark..

I seriously dunno who can help me bathe her and take care of her when i'm at work.. Maybe i should plan to work from home..
Haiz.. I really dunno... I feel so helpless...

Who can help me?

Snappy..

Dunno why..
I feel so snappy when i reached home..
I just couldn't stand another question thrown at me asking the ridiculous..
It is just another question of concern.. But i dunno why it just irritated the hell out of me..
Somehow, my patience is just absent today..

Maybe i just want peace and quiet, not loud conversations...
Maybe i'm just tired..
Maybe it's the lack of sleep..
Maybe it's just me..

I dunno..
I'm gonna sleep..
Before i irritate everyone's concern and irritating myself..

I love him so much...

I'm 1 lucky woman..
Or should i say, luckiest woman on earth..

I so lucky that i have a wonderful hubby who:
- tolerates all my nonsense now tat i'm pregnant..
- always asks me what i feel like eating
- always orders 2 items if i cannot decide what i want to eat and helps me finish up
- ask me to sleep early
- worry if i have a good sleep
- when it rains, ask if i have umbrella
- when it is cold, ask if i have jacket
- always ask if i have proper transport around
- and many many more..

I just wan to say, i love JASON LEE!

I hate it when...

I realise.. I really hate it and cannot take it when...

Someone ask me to rem to clean table after eating when that someone don't even clean the table when there's ants..

Someone tell me that he prefers the old, cracked rusty kettle when the new one is so much cleaner and hygiene..

Someone tells me to use washing machine to wash my clothes when the washin machine is not even clean in the first place..

Someone tells me to 'sun' my clothes once a week when the hangin area is only 1.5m(l) x 90cm(w) x 1m (h), and i changes office dresses EVERYDAY...

Someone tells me to eat when he don't even eat properly himself..

I don't mean to disrespect anyone, but there is no disparity of rich and poor in a household. But i really don't understand why someone like to treat/behave like the lower class when you belong to average. It is not as though i'm asking you to eat abalone everyday and wash with only 3m products.

Why can't u just treat yourself slightly better and the people around will feel better too.

Why can't someone see this logic?
I simply don understand and dunno what to do already..

Don't u feel tired?

Everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad.. For everything that happens, you can choose to look at the happy side or the unhappy side.

If u strike a balance between the 2, you will be less stressed.. But if u happen to always look on the unhappy side, u will feel tired and unhappy always..

Similarly, u cannot always opt for happy, but u can choose which side you want to be on.

What exactly is quality family time?

What is your definition?

My definition is do things together that the family likes to do, even though 1 member of the family does not like, it should still proceed. Every member of the family should learn the activities that the others like.

So if a family has 4 members, each liking soccer, basketball, netball and volleyball, does it mean the whole family cannot do an activity together?

Quality time should involve communication, but communication cannot sustain itself if there is no common interest or activity done together. Some activities may be costly, some may be free, so it ultimately depends on who is willing to make the effort to keep the family close knitted together.

Just like a relationship, constant engagement is required for a family to stay close and in constant contact instead of only meeting once a year, or the only things being communicated is about work and money.

Every year during CNY, you get to see relatives that you see only once a year, catching up on each others lives through eating, drinking, gambling, watching tv is another method of staying close.

Though some relatives may be really distant, it always makes the elderly feel good to see the younger generation visiting them and spending time at their homes.

Younger generations like us can use msn to catch up, but the elder folks areot as savvy, with technology, we must also keep in mind to stay close to our elders and roots.