my wishlist...

1. a proper clothes hanging area + rack
2. a bed-bug free house
3. nice, clean & tidy kitchen
4. proper baby area
5. a clean washing machine
6. a dryer (optional)
7. a bigger wardrobe
8. an iron + board / steam iron

hmm.. seems the above all equates to a new house.. haha...
hope the housing rules improve asap!

attending Mrs. Wong BB classes

Well.. i must say i learnt alot from Mrs. Wong BB parentcraft centre. =)

from types of delivery to pain relief methods to nutrition to do & don'ts and how to take care of baby!

took a picture of the 'baby-doll' for the class we learnt how to bath, swaddle & wrap the baby!

haha.. :p

and what items we need to buy for starters and not get over obsessesed in showering the baby too clean! haha...:p

My baby is 1.3kg!

Haha.. Finally some updates on my baby!
Amazing, she is 1.3kg already! Haha..
Jason and I are proud parents! :)

Can u try listening to my love language?

I just realised sth today... Abt a book i read years ago about individual love languages... I noticed my unhappiness stems from him not being able to understand my love language..
There are 5 types of love languages..
1. Gifts (showering with gifts)
2. Words (saying thanks)
3. Touch (giving a hug)
4. Action (doing sth when being asked)
5. Time (spending time)

i would guess and assume.. His language is more of words, action and time. Which i feel i have fulfilled.. But mine are not the same language as his..

I would like gifts, action and touch...
I miss our hugs and kisses, despite my bump, i still like an occassional hug (not from toys) and a peck on my face..
I would appreciate paid gifts, not soft toys.. That can help with my daily needs (racks, personal space) and not items 'taken/recycled' from somewhere.. Some things that i want may seem unneccessary/redundant to you, but it helps me alot..
I also prefer action as compared to words of things that u said.. Do it.. Rather then repeatedly asking.. It gives the feeling that at the end of the day, u just want me to say no, so there's no action required...

Am i thinking too much?
I dunno..

Feeling de-appreciated...

Well.. Days has gone by since my last post, my baby girl is growing well in my tummy, steady progress and she's behaving herself, not giving me any problem. I'm into my 3rd trimester already.. Hopefully she will be due on national day...

Somehow.. I dunno why.. I feel so lonely during my pregnancy.. Not that i don't feel love from him and my family.. But just feel so alone... So detached.. Seems tat baby girl and i are just depending on each other when she's due... When i see my cousins' staying with their mums, somehow, i know i'm not able to enjoy that.. Cos i stay so far away from my mummy and his mummy doesn't bother..

I really wonder how i can return to the working society after i give birth now that jason has started working in an office.. Not that i don trust his uncle but.. How can i expect a person who is taking care of ah ma to also take care of my bb girl.. He's not exactly the best person i have in mind.. Well.. Till time comes.. I also dunno now..

Been attending natal classes conducted by wong bb.. To me.. I really find the classes informative and helpful to me.. Sort of like preppin myself for my bb girl.. To ease the doubts i have and have a preview from the horses' mouth rather than watchin videos and books... Good for me, not good for him..

From class 1, i could tell he did not like it at all.. It clashed with his work and i was telling him not to come, but i know he wants to be there for me so he made extra effort to join...
Then class 2, ah ma was hospitalised.., i know he will not feel confortable not being by ah ma's side.. So i was tellin him not to come either.., but he wanted to be there for me so similarly, he made extra effort to come fo class...
Then class 3, he started work so i know he'll be tired.. Tried telling him not to come but still.. I know he loves me, so he made extra effort to come..
Still got 3 more classes to go.. Feel like tellin him not to go with me as i don like it when he pulls an unhappy and unwilling face in class... It always make me feel uncomfortable when i see how other hubbies pay attention to their wives and classes.. Cos i don't get that kind of attention... Somehow.. Just don feel good..
I know he angry with me for signing up and wasting his time cos he knows everything...
But i dunno alot of things... I don expect my cousin to be able to tell me so much cos they are busy with their family and work too...
The most they can tell me is always 'don bend, eat healthy, sleep more'. But they are not able to ease my anxiety...
Doesn't help much when i'm an idiot..

When i found out that he din have much to eat at his pantry, so i tried making bread for breakfast.. Instead of being appreciative.. I got told why i like to make 'heaty' sandwiches... Couldn't he tell me not to 'toast' instead of tellin me off?

Not that i want to rant here.. But i know he has enough on his shoulders and i donwan to make him worry abt me...

Guess i need to work harder on learning how to cook meals too.. Cos can tell we're running out of available food to eat ard our estate.. Doesn't help that i'm a pasta-maniac and his kitchen is not that friendly to me..

Goin to read up.. Nites..